I can tell that I've been busier than normal at work when I have a few things running through my head that I would like to post about, but I never get around to doing it. This is one of those times. I also attribute this to my current laptop that I am not happy with. Ace has been fine for a first laptop that I had nothing to do with picking, but he's 3 years old now I think, because I'm pretty sure I knew Voldemort and Mallory when I got him. Actually, I know for a fact that I did because I would not have known of the Ace that he is named after if I hadn't already met Mallory. I guess that means I'd met Socratic as well.

That reminds me! Mallory, if you want to go to their show let me know, I'll call Vinny and have him or Andy put you and Matt on the list. He and I still mention you every time that I see them, so I have no doubt that he'd like to see you.

Back to the lack of updating though. I hope to see an improvement in it soon, since I believe that Wilhemina will be arriving some time tomorrow and I'll have an awesome laptop! I really can't wait to have something that I should be able to know exactly what to expect from it on a regular basis. I'm a little apprehensive about getting used to the Mac controls, but I guess I'll figure it all out eventually.

Me updating today doesn't actually mean that I have any less work to do, so I'll get back to that and let you know when Wilma gets here!

Work + School = No Bueno.

My boss just told us all that she’s been offered another position within our ginormous company. Since the only reason that I was thinking of staying on during the school year was because she wanted me to, I have the feeling that I won’t be working come September.

This is a good thing for her, and I really do hope that she enjoys the position. The person that they will probably have take over for her though, I refuse to work directly under. I already don’t like how much I see this woman bending rules and don’t like it when my name is associated with those projects, I refuse to have to do any more of it.

I just looked through all of my financial aid again for this semester, and I decided to go ahead and take the second loan that was offered. I went through and tried to estimate on the high side what my monthly expenses would be, and then divided the rest to figure out how much I could afford in rent. I will be much happier with the extra cash upfront.

I do hope to have some sort of a part time position during the school year, though. I also intend to be filling out scholarships that I will hopefully get, and be able to save some money that way as well. The bottom line is that it’s definitely worth accruing a bit more debt if it means that I can get through school faster.

Any tips on my way through?

Weekly Review #1?

First attempt at a weekly summary type of post. This will by no means be a weekly event.

A few things have happened in the past week or so that I thought were note worthy, so I wanted to let you know about them. These are coming in order of remembrance, not importance or chronology.

I went on a first date last week. I’m going to admit it now, and I want to hear no comments about this part. I met him through match.com. We e-mailed back and forth for a few weeks, and I finally decided to just go for it. While walking there I was stoked. I saw him, and realized I was so not ready for something like this. I don’t want to blame this on the Jeff thing, because it can’t just be about that, but for what ever reason, I walked into the restaurant even though he was outside, making sure that he couldn’t see my face. I decided to just go for it, and the worst that could happen was that I not like him.

It actually went ok. I’m not really interested in anything more than friendship because of some specifics that don’t need to be shared in this entry.

Laura and I saw Hancock. I’d heard that it was a disappointment for some, but I really enjoyed it. Sure there were things that were amazingly obvious from way early on, but I never really knew how they were going to actually make it happen, so it was enjoyable to watch the journey, knowing that certain things were going to happen along the way.

Laura and I also saw Wall-E last week. Gorgeous movie. I wasn’t happy with the pace, plot or moral though.

I gave blood for the first time last Wednesday. It was an enjoyable experience, with the only negative side effect being the itchy-not-quite-bruise that I had at the site until yesterday.

I found out today at work that if my department was cut from the current one supervisor, four billers (plus another who is abusing benefits) and me down to three people over all, it would be the supervisor, one particular biller, and me, with some billing training I believe.

That was great, except that I don’t really want to work more than 16 hours this semester, so with a little luck maybe they will keep another biller on, or bring one more on part time. If I could get hired on and earn more per hour that would be grand.

My brother Scott is moving in with my dad until his wedding to avoid him having to be alone. He’s dealing with his wife’s death better than we thought. I don’t know how to help him really, but I’m trying to just be there for him. We’re going to see Get Smart tomorrow, so that should be fun.

Oh! Laura and I went with her parents to see The Sound of Music and Music Circus. I’m sorry to say that I was not terribly impressed. The performers were great and I did enjoy the evening, but I did not enjoy the interpretation of Maria or Brigita. With a piece so beloved as The Sound of Music, I understand taking a few liberties with some of the details, but not a main character!

Ok, that’s a lot to update about. Hopefully I’ll keep it up!

I know that it’s been more than a month, and that’s plenty of time to get over the non-relationship that lasted the 6 months before that, but I’m really not over Jeff. I don’t know if it’s the extra emotion of recent events, or just how it is, but I’m really missing him and hating the way that things ended.

To just stop calling like that shows just how little he respected me in the first place.

I’m not sure where to go with these feelings. I’m kind of afraid to tell the person who I tell most other things to for fear of disappointing her. I need to hear something about it being ok though.

I get that he simply wasn’t into me enough, and it’s over. I’m just still hurting and I don’t know what to do. I actually would really like to make more guy friends and try to stay away from romantic relationships for a bit. I’m not really happy with the male support that I currently have in my life, maybe that would help.

Someone please tell me that you’d have waited 10 more years of being single to find the person that you have now. Tell me that it really is worth the wait and it’s going to happen, because if it’s not I’d rather get over that fact now and get used to this.

Independence Day.

I just made the first of three calls to credit card companies to increase my credit limit. In an hour or so I think I’ll go call another. I’m saving one in particular for last because I’m pretty sure that if they know why I’d like the increase they will definitely give it to me, provided that my credit score isn’t worse than when they gave me the card in the first place, which I don’t believe it is.

I’m going to Laura’s parents’ house for 4th of July festivities tomorrow and I’m very excited. I had planned on spending the day watching the What NOT To Wear marathon on TLC, and would have been perfectly content to do so. The problem with that would be the having to tell my mother that not only was I not spending the day lying around her pool, but I was going to spend it alone.

I just think that if my options are alone or my family, the former is a much better observance of Independence Day.

Back, from outter space.

I want to start updating more regularly. I have actually thought about updating a lot in the past week, but I was a little bit preoccupied.

My dad’s wife of 5 weeks passed away last Monday. We still don’t know exactly why, but we believe that it was quick and hopefully painless. I’m not going to go into much detail about it because if you know anything about my dad and Karen, it’s probably that I was not a fan of hers, nor was she a fan of mine. I have a lot of mixed emotions toward a lot of different aspects of this whole situation, but publicly declaring them is probably not a viable remedy.

This past weekend we all went to a family reunion for my mom’s side of the family.

My brother’s wedding in September will be too soon to see them all again. I’m very glad that there will be a decent showing of my dad’s family as well, since it was made pretty clear to me that I’m a Wessel and not a Davini this weekend.

I’m looking for a new apartment again. My brother and I realized that it wasn’t going to work for us to live together about 3 weeks into our lease, so we’ve kind of been counting down the days until we could split. Our lease is not up until the end of September, but he’s currently looking for a new roommate, and now that I’ve found Holly I’ve been looking for more apartments.

I’d originally been looking for a one bedroom because of the financial aid that I’m getting this semester, but I think I’m just too practical for that. Why get a one bedroom that costs as much as a two if I could then have someone to split rent and utilities with? This way I will definitely be able to afford the semester with the grants that I’ve been offered and only one of the loans. Can’t really find a down side to having less debt.

I’ve got a lot of small projects I’d like to start, but I might wait until I move so I don’t have to stop them and never pick them up again. One of them is actually sitting down and writing out a few things running through my mind for blog entries that really would be more essays. I could probably do that before moving.

This is probably a little silly, but I’m proud of it so I’m going to share. I’ve been working on my credit lately, and I’m going to treat myself to a sparkly new MacBook Pro as soon as I talk to my credit card company and get a credit increase. I’d planned to that during my lunch today, but I left my phone at home, so I guess I’ll either go home for lunch or do it another day.