I'm pretty sure this outlet is safe now

I have definitely potentially messed up with him. It's taking me hitting bottom to realize what I really need to do. I wish that he would have just communicated what he needed to me. If he had I might not be feeling so foolish right now. Anyway, I've got the message now, so as long as I can keep it in mind, I hope that we can come out of this on the other side.

I am definitely a little scared, but I just need to figure out a way to deal. I'm hoping that I can get some help with that along my way.

I'm pretty proud of myself for the realizations of the day. I hope that they didn't come too late for the friendship down the road.